Turbulence

The most unnerving and unraveling moments in a person's life, she believed are coming face to face with a very powerful emotion - Sometimes its loss, sometimes its love, sometimes its dilemma, sometimes its disillusionment and sometimes its just realization. Like a storm plunging through the skies and pouring down.....it wipes away every sane thought and logic that crosses your mind.

Clarity is the key and that's exactly what one lacks in those moments. Life almost always presents choices. Some are clear based on your priorities, your values and principles and your life's experiences. Other times, the choices are murky. It takes an enormous amount of strength and will-power to do the right thing. It also depends on what you deem important in life.

Different people attributed significance to different things in life - power, wealth, success, relationships and so on. She had dealt with power and influence. She was born and raised in a family that had it all. Wealth was important but just to get by. Success was subjective. She did not believe in a common yardstick for success.

Relationships are what she thrived on. So, what she found most disarming was people not living up to their potential or what she believed was their potential. People disappointing to the extent that you've lowered your benchmarks for humaity as a whole. Relationships that matter but don't quite make it. Relationships that are promising but never get a head-start.

She struggled with these close encounters from time to time - she liked to call it emotional turbulence. She often wished there were a series of instructions to follow like "Fasten your seatbelt or walk to the nearest emegency exit in case of of an emergency landing" etc....Sadly, emotional turbulence came with no instruction booklet.

But then maybe not everyone experienced it in that magnitude. Maybe it was a girl thing. Or maybe one had to be capable of feeling every raw emotion to its absolute pinnacle. Not everyone was that gifted (or cursed). But her heart felt it -every whisper, every flutter, every tremor..... Most times, she felt alive because of it. Sometimes she wished she didnt feel so truly and deeply about everything. Because lets face it, most things didnt warrant or deserve that kinda ardent attention.

"You go with the flow" her heart would say "and when the tide is right, you steer your course to how you want to be"....Magic words ! She tried to repeat it in her head every single day !